Tuesday, April 28, 2009

BFN = Big Fat Negitive

Yeppers thats what I saw this morning on the home pregnancy test.....a BFN ( which is one line not 2.... I'm starting to think that these things really dont have 2 lines ). Of course today is only DPO 11. There is always a chance that the HCG hasnt built up enough but I really doubt it. So im chalking this one up to a no for round 2. Im not really sure whats up next. The doctor orignally said that he wanted to go 3 months and then talk if it didnt work but not trying to sound vain each attempt we do we have to pay for out of pocket so I dont think the natural way is working to great I would like to look into a better option. Who knows???? Not me :) All I know is that the 2ww (2 week wait = the time from when you have the IUI until your cycle starts again, meaning that those 2 weeks are the time that you could become pregnant and you have to wait to know for sure) is the most emotional straining thing that I have ever done in my life. It makes CF look like a walk in the park on a summer day. I honeslty dont know how my cousin Mandy had such amazing strength to do this. She is a true insperation to me.



65rosesqueen said...

Alisha: I'm so sorry, sweetie. My heart is so protective of you, and I've seen so many infertile women have the exact same reaction you're dealing with--that I hate to see you go thru this torment. I hope you're surrounding yourself with others who understand what you're dealing with, and know that you're not alone. I will pray that you will experience the peace in the loving will of God and the comfort to rest in His time. I know how hard that is, sweetie, so don't think I'm making light of this at all. It's just that I know it is in His power that you can get thru anything. I love you and thanks for sending me the link, so I could catch up with you again. Love, Margaret

Deb said...

Your Mom has been keeping me posted and I have been saying lots of prayers! I am praying that God will give you the peace and patience to carry you through this new journey in your life.
I know that waiting is the hardest part! I am proud of you and so very excited for the both of you!
Believing in HIM,

Diane Brown said...

Have faith, Alisha. It will happen when it is supposed to. Just stay strong and know that we are all praying for you.

Negative is just not now, NOT forever.

Love you,
Mom Brown